Friday, December 26, 2008

MY judgment day(2008 christmas)

today IS christmas...today for evreyONe..i thnk is a happiness day...but for me Nt... Today I totally feeling down...I absence of My mind whn working...den get scold...dunno y...mayb is bcaz of My sensation problem...I like a gal...NAME (E****)...tis tym also is the 1st tym i treat a gal so serious...i reali like her...my fren ask me y me like her...N i ask myself many tym Y i will like her...ANs is dunno...i oso dunno y i like her...mayb is feeling...whn i with her...i wont hav any imitate...i feel very happy whn with her...Today she Gv me ans directly...is we are imposible...we oni can b fren...N ask me dun waste tym on her...Wat the fuck...i dun thnk tat i wasting my tym...caz i really wanna b with her...Im seriously MAn...i really like her..i really concentrate On her...i can do watever she like for her...I can changing myself because of her..Trust ME MAN!!!!...whn the tym she told me tat Thng...My heart really break...really get hurt...i can feel tat PAin...my tear flow out of my eye...but i try to control myself..dun let it flow out again....y...y...y...Y im so stupid...waiting A imposible thng happen on me...Y...i keep asking myself...the answer is NO y...Tis all is because of LOve....Love is blind...Love is the top killer in the world...because love can change evryThNg...gud to worst...worst become GUd again...

EveryOne knw my style...i wont easily giv up whn i wanna to get sumthng i like...I will try until I get it...So i ask her...In future i still gt any chance to chase her again... she told me...FUTure thng nobody can knw...ME HER U....even if GOD...also dunno wat can happen in the future...last tym i always hope tat i can b her perfect MEN...but frm tis moment i really din hav any courage to expect i can b her perfect MEn...everytym i feel tat time will pass very FAst...but today for me time pass very slow...i hope i ady in future nw...caz mayb i hav the chance to chase her again...Haiz...But cant...CAz today still is TODAY....TIs whole day i live without sms-ing v her...i feel tat wanna Die...feel tat very bored...caz evrytym whn i was bored..she will accompany me SMS or chating..EvryDAy sms v her Already becum mY habIt...eVery morning whn i wakeup the 1st thng i will do is send a "GUD morning" to her...den ask wat her doing or WAT Wat....N whn her wanna SLP...I will send "gud NIte,sweet DREam" to her again...tIs kind of thng ady b a slice Of my life...BUt i thnk frm Today i nonid to do It again...even if i do it...i thnk she WOnt reply my MSG anymore...i din hav courage to expect her reply My msg too....haIZ....

Anyway...tis thng ady bcum reality...i cant change it anymore...i hope it jz a drEAm...But nt...it is TRue...i thnk tmr time...Will become more Worst.....HAIz.........Important is her...if she feel tat she did a corrcet DeCision...she will MOre HAppy...den jz Do It....I din Hav any Commet....Because i oso wan She live Happy all The tym..................HAiz...................dunno wat to say d..............but gt a Happy thng is I feel tat I really Grow Up d..Im really Become MAture...Nt more child d.... CAZ i knw wat i wan N wat i lIke....i knw whn to serious....i knw wat I do....i knw Hw to differentiate Gud n bad.....I knw wat Important to Me....N the most important thng is I KNw MYself....N i reaLly LIKE HER

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